Something that has always bothered me is insincerity. I wrote briefly about it before but It’s nothing compared to the whole expanse of things I want to say about it.

What especially gets to me, is the ones who like to think they’re a perfect example of humanity and then when the spotlight is removed, they become the very thing they claim to despise. The sad thing about that is most of the time, they don’t even realise they’re doing it, It’s so deeply instilled.

I’m talking about hard to define situations here. How many people still unconsciously judge on appearance? Even if the sincerity is there, when alone it becomes something natural, even though at the very moment it happens they are still trying to talk themselves into the right thing to do. Is this habit breakable? Or is that we’ve just become so brainwashed by society that the moral thing to do is eating away at us even though our learned habits tell us to make our decision based on what that person ‘appears’ to be.

You would technically have to shut off every negative situation you’ve ever been exposed to if you want to be able to view the world with an unbiased eye. Fortunately I think It’s when the opinion remains and starts to affect everything that follows that it becomes purpose directed, so just having thought about it isn’t enough to constitute insincerity; rather, what you decide to do next.

Yes I’m still here I’m in the middle of creating a new design and getting into my studies so I’ve been out of the whole online world for a bit. I’m not going anywhere, just standing on the outside, watching from a distance. My muse has apparently taken her own life..I’m trying desperately to win an inch of inspiration. I wish I wasn’t such a perfectionist. I will be patient..

Poor Connie went home searching for a missing cat. I saw Kim instead. Weigh-in day is always a little scary. However.. this momentous occasion shall be celebrated. My total weight lost is now 20.2kg! I’ve passed the 20 mark. The realisation is finally dawning on me.

An OMFG!! is in order. Do you know just how much 20kg is? I don’t know where It’s gone but I’m glad it did.