I’m torn between being saddened by Adam’s sincerity and upset at not being able to see one of the best bands in the world this coming Saturday night. Jodie and I had planned to see them this weekend. We had been really looking forward to it but I caught a bit of Rove tonight (was half asleep, but had details translated by an attentive husband) and they were supposed to be playing on there but had canceled so I went to check out what was going on.

“I know a lot of you made plans to be here in Australia and I realise this is going to be a pretty disappointing bit of news… I feel like I’ve let my life be governed by the rules of the road over all else for the past 10 years…Just this once, I’m going to be where I’m supposed to be …my mother lost her mum yesterday and I have to go be there with her.”

The full letter from Adam is here. So although I’m heartbroken that I don’t get to see them live.. I can understand where priorities should be and in this case, I deeply respect his choice and believe he did the right thing in cancelling.

I frequently lurk over at magick.com.au. See my internet life is pretty much the same as my real life here. I’m shy, overly sensitive and tend to stay in the shadows where I can watch and take in information. The problem with this is, when you have a really strong reaction to something someone says you can’t just pop out of the shadows after all that lurking and expect to be noticed. Anyway, THAT is an entirely different post.

So while immersed in my lurk-fest I read a post on the forums that you don’t see too often.. thank god for that. (Notice I always say ‘thank god’ rather than the neo pagan clique mantra of ‘thank goddess’.. Don’t get me started on the imbalance of paganism these days, yet another entirely different post.) Ok so I’m sidetracking again.

This person went on to tell all her fellow magickers that she had received an email from a very fierce demon, who most definitely was seeking to destroy her. She went on to tell us that her friend had been possessed by this ‘demon’ and it had taken over her, causing this kind of response in her email. She ALSO claimed she had done ‘some kind of spell’ to see where the ‘demon’ was and found out it was inside her friend.

I really want to say first off. Can anyone be more naive? I can’t figure with this one, whether she is attention seeking, seriously without life, or sincerely has a belief that a demon is emailing her.

My dear.. I don’t believe a demon with such shocking grammar and spelling skills would delight in sending you, of all the people in the world, an email. I think It’s more likely that any demon wanting you to hurt would just solidify in front of you and rip your arms off or something, because you know, that’s what demons do :s

I would really like to understand her motivation behind this post. Having a keen interest in psychology, this kind of attention seeking intrigues me. Could it be the case that she is just a simple lurker too wanting to break out of the lurk without response circle? Or has television and media rotted her mind to the point of actually believing this crap. I’d love to know.

I’m trying SO hard to get this new design up and organise myself. You know how hard that is? I was trying to work out how to schedule, how to make sure I get everything done that I want to do, within a time frame. So I used my many months idle excel skills to draw up a little chart of my weeks priorities. You know where that print out is now? Heh, neither do I.

I just can’t live to a schedule. I’m too spontaneous and like to have unrestricted choice about what to do each day. The down side of this is always having to rush to catch up. My days are pretty full.

News on the weight loss. I’m starting to lose in a strange fashion. I think I’ve hit a plateau and don’t even know it. I shake up my routine so much that my body wouldn’t have a chance to plateau even if it wanted to. So the plateau has been about 5 weeks of 1, 0.8, 1, 0.8 and so on. Before I was all over the place and losing almost always higher than 1. I’m still not complaining though Total loss so far - 26.6kg.

I love the fitness aspect of this now. Losing weight is no longer the focus. I enjoy classes more than anything. Going upstairs to the treadmill gets really old..fast so It’s good to be in a class where you’re thinking about technique and moves and not focusing so much on the hour of hard work you’re doing. For myself It’s a better workout too.

Step 1 - Make a list of everything you have to do, retrace the letters, give them fancy curled edges and draw some flowers and some other swirly affects to make it look pretty.

Step 2 - Find a place to put the list where you will see it. Just placing it isn’t enough. Spend 15 minutes searching for a tack or some tape to stick it up with. Marvel at your organisation skills.

Step 3 - Notice your desk is looking a little messy. Clean it, while cleaning, decide to re-organise your entire desk.

Step 4 - Feel like you’ve accomplished something and conclude It’s time to rewared yourself. Make a snack and watch some tv or a movie.

Step 5 - Notice you only have 3/4 a carton of milk left. Run to the shop and pick up another one. Get some magazines while you’re there.

Step 6 - Read bought magazines.

Step 7 - Glance at to-do list and suddenly feel motivated. Organise the things you have to do in to easy to manage groups.

Step 8 - Spend an hour on phone with friend.

Step 9 - Notice It’s almost dinner, take a break and grab something to eat. Perhaps catch the late movie, you’ll do what you have to do when it finishes.

Step 10 - Check email, follow links, notice friends online, chat some, get caught on an endless cycle of link hopping, re-check email, pour all your creativity into creating a house you would kill for on the Sims, re-check email.

Step 11 - It’s 3am, you can’t possibly do anything effectively now. Go to bed.

Thanks for the birthday wishes *mwa* I had a wonderful day with lots of well wishes from friends and family, which is the thing that makes my day the most. All the gifts and regiment can go out the window, give me sincere sentiment and smiles and I’m all happy!

I got some vouchers which I’m going to go spend on some serious new wardrobe additions. I’m going to have go through it properly soon and throw out a LOT of stuff. Most of it just hangs off of me now. Had my weigh-in first thing this morning. Lost a total of 24.8kg or just over 54lbs. Which is only just now starting to sink in. That’s a hell of a lot. The strangest thing is I’ve lost like 116cm off my entire body. C and I joked about almost losing her entire height in measurements.

So after wondering whether we should have pre-arranged to have a big cake-out or not. I went off with my PT to learn some of the new combat moves for the new launch coming up. Love it so much. It was supposed to be my day off today too.

Peter and I had our own cake-out instead tonight. He brought home a gigantic Orange and poppy seed cake with cream cheese frosting from The Cheesecake shop. This thing was ‘THE cake’ IT was divine.

Yep, good birthday

Yup, I’m the birthday girl today Well technically not until 10:25 in the morning, at this very moment I was yet to come into the world. I was 10 days late in fact. I was going to have the new design up for the day but it will have to wait now. I have a pretty full day.

For anyone that wants to know how to put an SMS feature on their site like I have over there, I’m going to detail it because a few people have been asking.

It’s quite simple really. You need to find yourself an email service that offers an email gateway. An option of forwarding your emails to SMS. Just make sure they send through the message ‘subject’ to your phone, doesn’t need to be the whole message. I use net2mobile and they send through the subject and the first 160 characters of the email, which is why I keep my SMS messages under that character limit.

The rest is just a simple PHP script which you call through an ordinary send email form. You can download the files here.

Yep, It’s the Friday Five. Oh how I have missed you.

What was…

1. …your first grade teacher’s name?
Wow.. um, I have no idea. I know it was a Mrs..something. I remember her singing the fuzzy wuzzy bear song.. A LOT.

2. …your favorite Saturday morning cartoon?
I watched Humphrey B Bear and Romper Room religiously, but that’s not a cartoon is it. How young are we talking here? This was about 5-7. As I got older, I grew out of the talking bear with no pants and the crazy bee and decided that I preferred things like The Smurfs, The Flintstones and She-Ra Princess of power. She was my hero.

3.…the name of your very first best friend?
I think my very best friend was Andrew. My mum and his mum were friends. Then there was Jacinta. I think.. My parents should be answering these questions.

4. …your favorite breakfast cereal?
I vaguely recall rice bubbles and weetbix. I preferred boiled egg and soldiers

5. …your favorite thing to do after school?
Anything below high school is starting to get a bit blurry. I remember watching MORE cartoons/TV, playing with Snuffy, our dog and my mum always making me a snack or drink. The little things.

I just wanted to say, everyone that has sent me an sms, I do receive them . I was sitting in the bank a few days ago and had neglected to turn off the message alert tones, which were on blaringly high volume. Everyone in the bank knows I got the message too

So thanks for your comments and just generally being such a cool person to write me and let me know you like the site, or whatever crazy thing you might be feeling/thinking on a certain day. I love getting them, they make my day.

I’m full of things to say at the moment and plus It’s a REALLY good way to avoid doing the other 3 units of History I have to do.